Why I’m Choosing To Bring The Magic Of My Childhood Back & How It’s Giving Me Hope

Feel Good Project day 37

I’ve been regressing into childhood fantasy these past few days-watching magical holiday movies and getting cozy with my inner child 🙂

Hadn’t seen the Polar Express and have been wanting to. Saw the DVD today in a store for cheap, so I bought it and made it my Christmas cheer tonight.

I tell you-nothing makes me feel better than bringing the magic of childhood back-especially this time of year.

Thankfully, I am one of the lucky ones who had a wonderful childhood experience, and I do not say that lightly as so so many people did not. That breaks my heart.

Truly, I am beyond blessed in this gift.

Also, thankfully my health as a child was amazing as well.

Never had digestive problems until I became an adult well into my twenties.

That’s why going back to my childhood in my head is so comforting to me-because it takes me back to a time when I felt good most all of the time. None of this day to day grab bag health stuff I have faced now for many years. It’s as if some answers to healing myself lay in my ability to go back to that comforting place in my head and truly learn to let go.

Just as I let go of one thing, another rises quickly to take it’s place, and the cycle seems to go on and on. Scarce are the sighs of relief in between. Letting go looks different all of the time to me. The more I learn to do it though, the more healing takes place which gives me hope that I can keep getting better and better.

A line that stuck out from the movie tonight was the train conductor’s reply to the little boy who asked if the conductor himself had ever actually seen Santa Claus.

His reply-

“Sometimes seeing is believing. And sometimes the most REAL things in the world are the things we CAN’T see.”

I know this is just a sweet children’s story, but I found comfort in that line tonight.

I, for one, cannot see the healing complete in my body or my mind totally freed from fear and worries. However, because I cannot see these things does not mean that they don’t exist and that they are not real.

Tonight, regardless of my limited view-I choose to believe.

FEEL GOOD MOMENT OF THE DAY: The nearly finished remodeled historic house next door was part of a charity fundraiser Christmas home tour. Being in close proximity, we could spy and hear all the events that panned out throughout this lazy Sunday afternoon-which included two flute players in the courtyard serenading visitors with nostalgic holiday carols. People dressed up in red and green, laughing and having a blast really brought a festive feel to our home today.