I Overcame A Huge Fear Today & I Feel Totally Empowered

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Feel Good Project day 15

Something my dear friend Amy Schuber said during our interview with her on Extreme Health Radio really left an impression on me and I find myself saying this phrase out loud to myself often in many different situations throughout a given day.

She mentioned in our time together that she attempts to go throughout her day with ‘ease and grace’, as she continually learns to let go and give in to the flow.

Well, I can say that since my meltdown in the park two days ago, ease and grace has continually hit me over the head REPEATEDLY, when in fact I thought that it had left me for dead.

I am LOVING it.

It feels like a return to a gushy, worn in comfy sweater or a warm cup of chai tea on a rainy winter day.

It’s partially me, as I am really trying to remain in that space of awareness of extending both ease and grace to myself, among many other gifts throughout the day. And it’s also giving the reigns over to God and trusting He can do better than I when I LET GO.

Letting go seems to be the theme of my life the past year, and man has it ever been a year of letting go. I think I will write the very last post for this year about exactly what I have experienced by the act of both opening myself up to new things as well as letting go of stagnant, worn out thoughts and beliefs.

Might sound silly at what I let go of this week, but two days ago I ate CASHEW butter for the first time in my life-and let me tell you-YUM!!!

For those who don’t know about my peanut allergy, it has been something that has plagued me my entire life. Physically for sure (the occasional severe reaction when I was young) but mentally- the FEAR that it has caused me over a lifetime is what I have had to really work on letting go of.

Although I have never tested positive for any allergy to nuts other than the peanut, the fear has been holding me down so long that I became afraid of ALL nuts, as irrational as this may be.

I have been totally unwilling to try new nuts…until now.

WHY NOW?

I got very sad about giving up my sacred whey protein powder, as well as my precious coconut chips (and all in one week!) that I was in the kitchen the other day making Justin some yummy deserts that contained cashew butter and I was tired of being afraid. Being afraid sucks, and so does running out of food options while your gut is trying to heal.

So I just grabbed a spoon and dug right in.

It was like my old fear melted away like the delicious butter in my mouth. It was as if the irrational brain just couldn’t deal with irrationality any more, and the rational brain was finally able to take center stage for once in my life.

This may seem so small to some, but we all have our battles-and this was one GIANT win for me!!!!!

Kate wins. Fear loses. 🙂

Today was a great day. Waded my way through with as much ease and grace as the universe would throw my way, and I am beginning to remember slowly what it feels like to feel really really good.

FEEL GOOD MOMENT OF THE DAY: Having our chiropractor Dr. John Bergman in the studio for a live show today, who turned to me at a commercial break and exclaimed with the most enthusiasm I have seen in a long time, “Isn’t this just the BEST??? It’s conversations like this that are changing the WORLD!!!!”….how true it is. I love that man!

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