Why It’s Hard To Expect Miracles Even When You Don’t See Them

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Feel Good Project Day 5.

Upon waking today, I was hit with the harsh reality of not having enough money to pay my bills.

I am sure I am not alone in this.

Not due to the lack of working my tail off at the salon one day a week or being lazy-seems all both Justin and I do is work in some way, shape or form pretty much around the clock (well, I guess there is that little 8 hour break in there called sleep. thank God:)

However, sometimes no matter how many affirmations I say to myself or how many inspirational podcasts or programs I listen to, life is just flat out rough. Today started out as one of those.

There is nothing glamorous about the struggle we so often find ourselves in while we attempt our very best to follow what we truly believe is our calling and purpose here on earth. I believe Justin and I are here to spread the message of hope about alternative healing modalities through our work with creating Extreme Health Radio.

We are not on the other side yet that so many people talk about-the side where all of a sudden everything just worked for them and the struggles went from gigantic to microscopic in what seemed like an instant. At least that’s the picture they paint when many people recount their stories, that is.

I have to say-I KNOW money can’t buy happiness or solve all of your problems, but there sure are days when it would just plain help out in many ways.

ESPECIALLY when one is recovering from any kind of illness or health challenge.

It really saddens me that we all just can’t seem to put all of our focus on getting better without that nagging, pesky thing called finances looking over our shoulder.

Well, this all may be a present reality today for me, BUT I have to say, the minute I walked out the door this morning to walk Maggie, I was OKAY with this reality.

Two years ago when I was going through a very, very dark time in my life, this would not have been the case.

What happened to change ME, when the circumstances were still the same?

I have come to the conclusion that I have been living more out of the “EXPECT MIRACLES” philosophy these days, and that is what makes all the difference in dealing with today’s stress.

[spp-tweet “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at, change. – Wayne Dyer”]

As I followed little bouncy Maggie down the street, I stopped to smell the neighbor’s roses (which I have made a daily practice! I love how it sets the tone for my morning) and got hit with the saying ‘expect miracles’ as I deeply breathed in the beautiful roses that were just being warmed in the morning sun.

I marinated that phrase in my head and made it my sort of mantra for the whole half hour walk. With every step I repeated it to myself all the way down the street. When my mind started to worry or fret, I just kept on with the repetition, in order to crowd out the unwelcome negativity.

Upon walking back home, I knew that everything I needed would somehow work out as it always does, and I was to let go and just trust the process. I was aware of needing to get out of my own way once again.

Upon coming home, Justin greeted me at the door with a good morning hug. I told him that I didn’t know where money was going to come from as things were getting tighter than they had been in a long time.

As he walked away into the bedroom, he said to me, “Just remember to expect miracles.”

That very phrase is posted on the wall at Dr. Bergman’s office (our amazing chiropractor!) and both J and I see it three times a week when we go to our appointments.

I think it’s been seeping into our brains lately, and to hear Justin say that to me totally validated everything that I had just been meditating on.

I love that stuff!

Financial health, I am learning, goes right along with physical health and vitality.

I am learning many lessons of changing the things I can by making the wisest decisions possible at the given time, and for the things that I cannot control-to let go and trust that it is all part of the master plan.

Part of the Feel Good Project is being willing to get honest about the things that I am less than satisfied with in life, to bring them to light so they may lose their hold on me. That I may experience them, take what I need from the lessons, and then move on to a place of healing in those areas.

So I bet you want to know what happened as the day went on?

Absolutely NOTHING miraculous.

Yes, that’s right.

No random check appearing in the mailbox as you so often hear in success stories. No family member calling out of the blue wanting to shower me with money. I surprisingly didn’t even win the lottery from the ticket I bought last week either. In fact, I am no closer to paying my bills tonight than when I woke up today.

What IS different is the way I am viewing this situation. While I could find this frustrating, for some reason it’s not. I think it’s because I know with absolute certainty that the miracle is on the way, in the background already at work weaving situations together, in my favor, to work out in the exact time that they are supposed to.

I recognized today that ‘wishing’ for miracles and EXPECTING miracles are two very different things. Expecting something means just that-it’s a deep knowing that it will absolutely come to pass, no ifs ands or butts. It just IS.

And so, I wait and watch and go about my life looking up in expectation. And this feels right-it feels good.

FEEL GOOD MOMENT OF THE DAY: On my morning walk seeing a man painting a windowsill down the street with his back toward me wearing a shirt that read “Pain is weakness leaving the body.”