My Job Is Even More Toxic Than I Thought & Why I Need To Leave

Feel Good Project day 29

The Feel Good Project is sometimes going to sadly be about NOT feeling good, and what I can learn about this in order to return to better health.

Today was just such a day.

Not surprisingly though it was a Saturday again (shocker!) that I did not feel my best. It was fortunately a light load for me today though at salon, but still strange that I feel the worst I have the whole week.

Not quite sure WHAT is causing this slow decline back to digestive discomfort over the past two weeks-it could be a myriad of things really.

My guess is that it is a mixture of a few new foods I have added in, and might still be working their way out of my system.

That, and my gut tells me that until I leave the salon altogether, the continued exposure to these toxic chemicals are not helping. I have been paying attention the past few Saturdays at work just how I feel different after a work day than when I started.

The biggest, most noticeable difference is upon leaving just how stuffed up my nose gets. I spend the rest of the day with bad sinus issues that I never had during the week, and that fade again by the next morning.

Decided to read the back of the hair color box the other day at the beauty supply (just for kicks:) and was concerned even more by what I read.

It posted a warning to be careful about applying this color to clients with henna tattoos, as this was a possible trigger to an allergic or harmful reaction.

WHAT?

First off, henna is a natural substance I thought! What in the WORLD is in this stuff to cause that possible interaction?

UGH.

To be honest, I need to look much more into this, as I don’t know specifics as to what could be causing this warning. However what I walked away with more than anything is a strong reminder of what these chemicals are doing to me after the past fifteen years, and just as important-what harm am I doing to my clients by offering them this toxic service?

A friend of mine posted this on facebook yesterday and I had to share:

“Again, there is something quite remarkable about one who is broken. If you are one who is indeed broken, you will find that you are not only able to give help but in the giving you also are helped.”

– Watchman Nee, The Release of the Spirit

Gentle reminder that although I often feel so broken on this journey in regards to health, all is NOT lost. If just one person is encouraged that they are not alone in their health struggles, then that is worth it to me.

I DO agree with every fiber of my being that in what little I hope I am helping this world through this work I feel led to do, I am being helped in the process.

Truly amazing to watch the process before my very eyes.

Although today was not great as far as my body feeling great, my soul is encouraged and I am so thankful that tomorrow is a new day and I get to start all over again…

FEEL GOOD MOMENT OF THE DAY: The love affair I am having with my new stainless steel refrigerator that got delivered today! I didn’t know I could feel this way about an appliance, which makes me feel like I have officially entered adulthood! I have wanted one for close to fifteen years now, and TODAY was the glorious day that wish came true! Thanks Mom and Dad for our early Christmas gift!!!!!