Here’s Why I Didn’t Cry Like My Clients Did, As I’m Nearing The End…

Feel Good Project day 50

Part of feeling good is letting others bless you.

Boy do I ever feel blessed today!

Today is one of my very last Saturdays at the salon, and I think it’s starting to really sink in for me that this transition is approaching very swiftly.

What made it more real then ever before was that today was a last appointment for many of my clients turned friends for the last fifteen years. We reminisced about all that has happened along the journey since we had known each other-so so many changes.

The relationships turned marriages, the births and deaths, new homes and moves away are just a few of the stories we revisited today as a sort of wrap up to our relationship. It has been quite a run.

The most touching part were the tears and really tight hugs that appeared at the end of appointments today.

I don’t know why, but it really surprised me.

What surprised me even more was my lack of tears. I got a bit misty as I so cared about these particular friends today, but I was not my typical old sappy, weepy, fall apart self I have always been. I was shocked I was not one big blubbering mess today as I said goodbye.

Part of it I believe is the orchid essences I have been taking, thanks to my dear friend Alison Adams who turned me on to their power. They are very subtle but very powerful I am learning.

The sense of calm they have been bringing into my life is somewhat amazing. It’s not that I don’t feel-it’s as if I am feeling things now as I should have been for ages, but have been in hyper sensitive mode and so so drained by stress that I was OVER emotional for so long. This is a WELCOMED relief to say the least.

Reveling in love and appreciation that was thrown my way today was the ultimate mood enhancer and spirit lifter. It is absolutely amazing what a kind word or letter brings to the soul.

I was inspired and reminded in a very powerful way today to always be that beacon of love and hope for people who I come in contact with every day.

The other reason I think I didn’t completely fall apart is that I am SO in love with my current projects and work and where I know I am going with this adventure.

It’s like the person who leaves on a trip is never as sad as the person left behind who is awaiting their return.

That seems to be because the person who leaves knows they have this great adventure awaiting them and they are looking so forward to what is to come that they are not as sad. That is the way I am feeling…I am so excited for what the next season is!!!

Also, truth be told is that it’s been probably eight years since I have been wanting to take this leap, so I have had much time to prepare, although I don’t think one can ever be truly ready to take the plunge.

My heart is full and I am blessed.

FEEL GOOD MOMENT OF THE DAY: Realizing today that Friday nights are now not my worst feeling time of the week like they have been for so long now. Maybe because I am knowing that change is around the corner and I am taking action to make it happen? The past three Fridays I am encouraged when night time rolls around now I am not physically acting up digestion-wise like I have for so long now! Step in the right direction. I will be interested to see how many other strange symptoms or challenges cease as well as I continue down this road… 🙂

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